People may be familiar with a Christian song, called Amazing Grace. When I first heard this song, I was not only impressed by its beautiful melody, but also by its lyric, since it expresses my sentiments, and also reminds me of my way of salvation.
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
One Friday evening two months after coming to Toronto, my husband and I got a phone call from his friends, Chen and Grace who asked us to go to a Bible study with them. When we heard that the preacher, at whose house the study was held, used to be an engineer with IBM, our curiosity was immediately arrested. We decided to go and discover what kind of power could enable this.
I did not realize this was the wonder-working power of salvation until I got saved in May 2002.
The Bible study continued each Friday, and my interest in knowing the Lord Jesus Christ, His death, my sins, and my future gradually became stronger in my life. “I want to be saved,” I said to the Lord and to myself, a few months after the first Bible study. However, it didn’t happen right away. I tried to do some good things attempting to “please God”, but I was not saved; then I tried to make a feeling of being saved, but I failed. There were struggles in my heart in those days. I felt so powerless.
One Friday evening in May 2002 at the Bible study, one brother of our study group showed me a verse in first John chapter 5, verse 13 and I understood that I strongly believed what it said. So when I was asked where my sins were, I realized that they had been forgiven – they were gone. Obviously I had never realized before that if my sins were gone, that would mean that I was saved. No wonder I felt lost. At that moment, I came to understand that there was a wonder-working power helping me step by step to get to my way of salvation. This is real amazing grace to me because I have become part of God’s family, and I know where I should go to when I need help, comfort and wisdom.
As a new Christian, I understand I still have a long way to go. I will no longer feel lost, but become stronger in my life.